Monthly Archives: February 2016

a single slip, that ruins

I fascinated by Chinese new year, by February 8, a moment where i ran for 25.67 KM wearing a red jacket to Cyberport 2. a destination that i imagined to be the things i will pursued on. I wasn’t expecting, that it was my last day to run; at least until this writing created.

First time of my life, my ankle  injured on the 3rd day of Lunar. not by a race, but because of a price tag of  a Birkenstock’s soles and listening navigation song by Mighty Mouth; that dilutes my concentration (and other imaginations i had). Sloppy, I wasn’t carefully watch my steps, on my way down through the small cubed stairs, in front of Kebab House 27 at Hollywood road to get a Wonton noodle, internet said, it would get me never ending fortunes for the rest of the year.

It was loud, “crack” voice, such a voice of Roma cracker being crunched without put it inside a hot milk.people tried to helps me by asking me for let them call ambulance, but i wasn’t expecting it would makes me handicapped.

My  ankle; swelling. tripled its normal curve. I still continued to eat noodle. since my purpose was to eat noodle.

a week before, i talked to my friend that we must stick to the plan, even terrible things happen. being inflexible and stick to the plan even things goes wrong could be fun, it was a perfect Wonton Noodle anyway. I ate while withstanding the pain.

I went to Doctor the day after, the roentgen result shown my bones is fine, but ligament, wrecked; need 10 days to recover, the doctor said. and i believed it. and today is the 20th days; getting better but it still psychologically gain its confidence back, and difficult for perfect praying movement.

Yesterday, i represented my company. a 15 KM trail run (its a hike anyway since it was only 10 minnutes/km. finally i ran again for the first time, but slow. and it was boring to be slow. i couldn’t jump or maneuver along the way. not going run, for days made me felt unfulfilled, loosing a habit.

i grateful the importance of my feet, as my asset to create value, where i can get stress and mental release during exercise session.

No point for regret, it is a warning; from the Lord, not too put 100% trust on fortune teller said about doing things; eventually if the fortune teller is from the internet. I consulted with my mandarin teacher, that it was only a stereotype to do those things.

Its fun to make ludicrous of our self isn’t it. Doing things that misaligned with main purpose, what i my equity analyst friend called a random walk. like Dharmagandul said, The Chinese was too smart that it creates varies of letter and font, while Javanese not develop that, but develop Budhi. but i did something that i believed i had to do; driven by curiosity, guts, and good intention. which I convinced (more than before); it made from perseverance and consistency; not by a bowl noodle, red clothes, and clean up the house with wet clothes that i did.

actually i had some misfortune at Chinese new year, where my credit card stolen (or possibly tumbled) during my running session, and it was my fault not to follow my instinct to put it in my 2XU pant.i must have been more careful thereafter.

February is so bumpy. many misfortunes happened. i don’t know what kind of Karma i had, but i believed i did something wrong. my mind and body was not well in sync. and i start to belief on my self alert more than before. If you are in Doubt, Better not do, and evaluate thoroughly. sounds rhetoric.

today is a leap year. talking about a leap, i remember one of my conversation with my friend, on what i could do after i return in Jakarta. i barely have no Idea on what i can do or achieve later on, i only able to improve my self, sharpening my saw. related to result, we never know. people talk about leap, i talk about orchestrating improvement that enhance my capability to be on par with those whom i admired.

life is not like invest in a stock portfolio, which we can hedge the risks by diversification, and waiting long term return that generated by earning per share.

life is a Venture. if you like, buy and manage, and reap the return. if you don’t like, exit.

it could be mystify if there’s plenty venture opportunity anyway.

so, do you think stocks portfolio and Venture is tantamount? never mind, but do protect your asset, especially if it creates return that leads you to your destination(s)

QB. 23.59 2016|2|29th My Way, Frank Sinatra






Monkey Year | be Optimist, Intelligent, Agile

Gōngxǐ fācái, Bùbù gāoshēng

Lunar is coming, it’s a Monkey. Monkey is Intelligent, optimistic, confident, agile, curious, I put the positive traits, since I believed if at least those traits can be mastered, would make me a better person. So what I got on internet about Dragon on 2016?

“In 2016, everything takes a turn for the better. In career, they are given more opportunities to utilize their talents, and their brilliant performance will help them get promotion. Luck in wealth is also prosperous, and they may attempt to invest in new projects, which may enables them to make a fortune. Interpersonal relationships are also favorable, and there is no big problem in their fitness.”

I only believed truth teller if its good. So if its not good, I will soon get my brain activated its amnesia module. anyway, i also read some activities that will bring luck on Chinese new year, I cleaned my floor, table, with wet clothes today, they also suggested me to buy a new clothes, red color to bring luck. while my office colleague suggested me to use red underwear to bring luck.

I wasn’t made any resolutions from the Christ new year. I merely try to avoid myself into a “flat zone”, but its vague. I was so random; I walked with no purpose, during January. I had plenty energy, my mind jump around from here to there, but no crystal clear purpose, unfocused. Such a Rambo, hit everything randomly with M15; but it was Sniper bullet; a misfit. leads me into additional 3kgs weight, from my ideal 71kgs. it’s a mess.

Something gone wrong. Seems the system got a malware. Even I could defense that due to winter, my body need for fat to keep my organ warm. I must try to configure what the short term, steps are set, but not structured. It such finding file on my mac, but cant get the file quickly. A lag; sign of arising problem.

Last Wednesday on bimonthly Centraller toastmaster at City Hall, Recital, 1st Speaker talk about “good to be great”, I read the book years ago, his speech remind  me of bravery to take a risk and face challenges. 2nd talk about marriage, not for waiting to long. 3rd about Goliath, killed by David, but if you are the Goliath, what would you do to face David if there’s a second chance? Where’s the location of war? What strength you are going to improve to win?

I tried to correlate it with my life, I have to do something, decide where to play, and how to win, and capabilities I must acquire, and systematically apply it. not to play to play; but play to win. At least I must focus on things that going to happen this year, and 5 year to come. When I get 28 and 32.

Tonight I contacted my friend, Boss Ucup, an old friend, who allowed me to stay in his home, privileged me to study on his big and woody dining table, enjoy all supply food he had, and comfortable bed. He said about to be focused, Porridge can’t be a rice. Focus on things ahead, and grab the chance, or somebody else will, be decisive. Deep inside, I still have faith; that the best chance, is worth to wait, best chance will landed on the best landed zone. So, I must keep my self improved to become perfect matched landed zone, without s.

Anyway, I started to do somethings that I only thinking of. I hope I can do more things, not just only think and analyze risk and return. Some of it are:

Invest on stocks. Activated account I prepared since June 15, bought stocks I planned for long time. Things I only imagined when I read JP and BI for last five years. Exercise lesson from Investment class. I also subscribed into WSJ. It was lucky, since on Friday closing JCI hit 4700. As a hint, in the future, business that will emerge are: Healthcare & Beauty, Construction, and Chemical. But bank also good too. But it was too expensive, price to earning was too high.

Trail Marathon Race. during late 6 weeks, i never skipped a weekend without trail run.  trail run is different, it makes me more prepared before run. I never had any equipment before, only Asics shoes, a 55:45 Joint Venture result of my fortune in Macau; to gambled for 1st time with Mr.Vincent & Petrus, where my $100 become $2000 in 2 hours. I split 50% to my friend; I understood, gamble is forbidden, I shared the guilt to reduce my sin.

Now I am well equipped, There’s GPS watch,cap,windbreaker,water system. I thought this equipment just a joke or to make me feel cool, but it give me lesson, that Trail, is not a Road. We never know, what really going to happen, it could be tycoon, rain, or cold temperature.

Trail run such a life, its not a flat track, You know the route, weather, and distance. In trail, there’s peaks and valleys, weather changes quickly, lots of rocks and mud, even snake and boar.

Those dynamics and risky trait of trail, really excite me, pump my adrenaline. Challenged me to be Quick, Agile, and Persistence. Quick because probably boar will run for you, of course not, its because those in trail has higher speed than roadrunner, Agile because of unknown difficulties, and persistence because its requires long distance.

My 1st trail, was join a social-trail run, hosted by Jan Littlewood (until lately i found he made lots of records on most trail track in HK), the concept of social run: run as strong as you can, eat and drink (alot) afterwards. This group informed me about King of The hill race series. Last week was my 1st race marathon, it was 36KM the longest run I ever had. The fastest was Michael Skobierski by 03:35:47 and me by 06:23:18. 3 hours gap with the champion.  I ranked 120 of 160.

Podium, is just an ambition now, Can I run that fast? My leg, it little bit curved, mine is not a runner leg, it is a karate leg. I unable to overhaul my leg though, but I have a faith on progress of routine and discipline. will at least helps me to be finished on 80th position for my next race.

CIMA While my CIMA still on math paper. In this case, I think I can mastered it for the next quarter. as i mentioned, my weaknesses is on number, i always avoided dealt with number. Until recently I heard about international competence, this is one of my passport to be able to work everywhere, including at home. Home of Chicago Bulls. Some of my UK friend, scored high on this test, but the other one, Singaporean friend, he already did the strategic level CIMA on his 3rd year. They really smart. I take it as motivation.

Happy Chinese New year, hope We become More intelligent, More Optimist, More Agile.  Start doing

QB.HK. 2.46 AM.

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