“Do you living your dream?”
It is an inextricable part of my life for adjusting dreams. My Dream in high school, was to be a barber, inspired by Takuya Kimura’s Film, In College, was to work in Brand Management. Now? The reality is am I living in Jakarta, working at a corporation, earned an MBA, lived overseas. Can you gauge my dream deviation and standard of error? Now, I have curiosity on Venture Capital.
I believed on Allah’s blessing, for always showing me path through many serendipity. Anand Krishna which taught me of the importance of respecting diversity, Djenar M. Ayu which tell me the exoticism of Jakarta, and an event in University of Indonesia in 2008, called Youth and Multicultural Conference, seared my ambition to be able to deliver speech without text in public.
I met many inspiring individual who changed my perspective of how big a desire should be and triumph it. I met friends from Strategy Consulting Firms, Investment Bank, Venture Capital, Private Equity and Tech Startup; I met mentors who shared me their wisdom on how they get into their position, I felt aspired of what they do.
Last Monday, I visited a Toastmaster at Menara Imperium, A speech by Reggy.H, He said “If your desire is not scared you, its not big enough”. He reminds me the importance of balancing Idealism VS Realism and being proud of yourself as a tools to distinguish you from others. if you don’t have pride, you don’t have character. I was imbued to find and tame beast within me.
Do you do what You wanted to do? Do you aspired of what You do?
first – A realism
I felt blessed on my job, learning new skills in enterprise risk management, marketing, and networking opportunity in HQ and Business Unit. the role is not scare me to death, probably since it still my 3rd months, (still) limited knowledge, and a transition from working in 4th gear into 2nd gear, and euphoria of worked in multiple departments. but like my previous boss said, “There will be a time when you being put at Kawah Chandra di Muka, and when you be there, what you do is deliver the best, be the best Kid“, I think its a good time for me to enjoy the role, since i would have more time to do my what’s next.
Second – an Idealism
I like to work in Project Management, Business Development, Investment, and Marketing; roles that I passionate and I believe i can be my best. I feel that a role in a VC is fit for me. People said, compared to folks who have corporate finance background and graduated overseas would be have higher chance to be hired, given that most PE and VC in Indonesia funds are generated by overseas graduated, is it an indicator that I must go to West Coast?
Third – The Middle Ground
Wise man said “Grit, focus, and perseverance” is a key to get what we wants. Not all the things we truly want can be easily get. I have a hallow voice, a beast; spoke to me “it is very close if you bravely jump out”, but the steadiness also thwart me to jump out. The older we are, the more we become risk averse. to conclude, if no one from my elementary school eligible to enter the most prestigious high school in my district and get full scholarship in college, if no one from my college able to enter the big company and sent overseas, If no local boy able to enter a VC, Could I?