9 years in Jakarta, Never thought that I would have this peculiar opportunities. but I should be prepared for new things that will helps me open more doors. Step in and step up carefully, to pick best steps to take in the future. 2019 is dense and rapid, almost no break, at least until today I have time to write down my thought, to absorbs new information, knowledge, assets, accesses, networks, experiences in my favorite teak wood table and alter it into meaningful insights.

New Bosses, New Life, New Experiences, New Records, New Worthy Friends.

I am grateful, on the verge of 2019, what I dreamed of since I was high school, once again, are come true. I will keep a secret of what are those. In 1999 I read books that inspired me to pave my way to be in my position now, here in Jakarta. 20 years later, it is come true. Hopefully, there will be more to come, one by one. My weakness is spending too much time on imagining and tinkering things that helps me keep my fire burning, to keep my energy high, to keep my eyes open. I believe that my weakness is a character helps me a lot to see in a bigger picture. I am not fast, but prudent. I am not clever, but I feels that I am good on see a gold when other people see that as a copper. Sometime they are right, but most of the time I am right.

I don’t take instant gratification. What I am doing is some long games, something that I learn from Marathon and Trail Marathon. The last time I did with Instant gratification was took me years to recover from regret and guilt. I won’t take that bitter pills once more.

I thought  Marathon is an easy game, but not or might be barely hard for some people. I did a trail marathon at least once a year and I finished it, better that those who always practice but they didn’t make it. I am so confident because I trained so much for do it, I prepared, I did prepare, long before I decided to register to a race, consistently. I think, that is the reason why I always learn new things before it needed. and by the time it needed I just need to update a bit.

True things that I must admit is  I am getting lazy. I remember my friend that has long hair, he is a man, said to me “your life take its toll”, i am looked up to dictionary and find its meaning “to have a bad effect on someone or something, especially over a long period of time” i feel it too, But it won’t last long. I am ready for do more than ordinary (average) people do. I Will have energy and patient to make it happen. To deliver my best. 

When some are only see result, I believe on process.  

At certain point, I feel that spirit is being opaque. Watching movies and reading books are helps me to sharpen my focus, stop doing things and let my brain and imagination flying so high, so high that helps me to imagine myself from year of 2019 into 2039. 20 years from now.  I feel a zest. Very high that makes me high. And be where I want to be. to make it happen, stand still don’t help. I must work my ass off, gets my hands dirty, and open new route for myself to make it happen. All are upon on me, my deeds, thoughts, prayers and essentially mighty lord blessings and supports from my friends, close friends exactly. 

last two days, I watched house of cards. Playing long game is still best strategy, In life, work and superstition life. I remember the day I read Sun Tzu book in my college library when nobody reads about it.I remember when I read the book the law of power by Robert Greene that helps me remember to master Strategy, seeing a bigger picture. A game that I am playing now. No rush, be patient, and people will notice your endurance.

Jakarta, November 10^th 2019.

George Benson – Greatest love of All.